Our world got turned into the deepest hue of blue
At the moment I fell out of you
Said you,

“I was cruel,
Honey, we both know this ain’t cool
…But I’ve always wanted to be with you.”

Oh how we looked so beautiful
Beneath the starry skies
I still remember the butterflies
Our lips were so good with these lies
Yet, it felt like it was all true
That I loved you

Honey,
I wasn’t trying to rescue you
Or never meant to hurt you,
Though I already did, through and through
All I knew is that my body needed you

Did we even have a clue?
Tell me, what’s your cue?
And just like that,
We said each other’s ‘Adieu’.

-July, 2021.

I see the devil within me
Thriving, for as long as it can be.

Oh God, please
Release this foul grim beneath my skin
-Help, my powers are sinking in
Regain the strength I had once claimed;

“Are we still breathing,
or are we losing?”

-July, 2021.

Honey,
You’re my ecstasy
I consume on the daily

His scent got me all dreamy
in this sweet little fantasy
You’re the cup to my chocolate when it’s rainy
while we’re watching Yu-Gi-Oh! on TV

Baby,
We’re makin’ a history
yeah, I know it’s tricky
but you best believe me
in the end, this would all be lovely

Darling,
Whenever you’re calling
My excitement keeps pumping
You’re the one giving
all of this daydreamin’

oh, Dearie
I will be the glass for your wine
and as my heart
Beating its rhyme over time
only then,
You shall be mine.

-July, 2021.

Baby,
We float on this dock forever
Afraid of what’s under the water
You find it uncomfortably awkward

Here, come a little bit closer
Let us have this sweet endeavor
Embrace the moment
And I swear I’ll dive deeper
Into the unknown

What are we waiting for?
Swimming,
Or just waiting for it to be over?

-July, 2021.

Sebelum fajar tiba,
Kita menari di atas rembulan
Mabuk ekstasi bersama bintang-bintang
Tak sadar akan waktu yang perlahan menghilang.

Sebelum fajar tiba,
Kau meminta agar sempat bercumbu dengan masa lalu
Yang sejak dahulu kau takuti akan kembali
Kini aku menghidupkanmu sekali lagi.

Sebelum fajar tiba,
Hujan sempat menangis
Saat memori yang tertulis
Kelak akan menjadi habis.

Sebelum fajar tiba,
Dengarkan sabdaku;

“Semesta itu tidaklah tuli,
Ataupun seorang tunanetra,
Ia bahkan tidak pernah alpa.
Semesta adalah pengabul doa-doa
Bagi hambanya yang memilih
Agar tetap kuat,
Meski dalam duka
dan selalu gembira
Walaupun hujan memilih untuk tidak reda.”

-April, 2021.

“The Sun loves the Moon so much;
That He dies every night
To let Her breathe
–and in return
She reflects His love with bright light.”

-April, 2021.

Ketika sunyi di malam reda;
Tangan-tangan pendosa
Menengadahkan percikan air doa
Memohon pada Sang Pemilik Raya
Agar diberkati kebun dan telaganya.

Ketika sunyi dalam hening berada;
Bisikan lembut yang terhanyut hingga ke rongga dada
Dengan sabar, berkata:

“Jangan menangis, Mina
Ku dengar hati kecilmu memekik penuh rasa sakit,
Bersaksi bahwa kau dan setan telah merajut ikatan jahanam sejak lama.
Demikian, kau tak acuh meski berulang kali merindukan lara.
Namun tak apa.
Ketahuilah bahwasanya Aku,
Aku,
AKU-lah,
Yang ‘kan menghapus segala sara,
Mengusirmu dari ruang hampa,
Dan ‘kan menghidupkanmu kembali bahagia.”

Ketika sunyi sayup-sayup bernada
Bersyair di hadapan sepasang lentiknya bola mata Mina
Gembira, dan ia sumringah.
Mimpi indahnya kini menjadi nyata
Hanya saat sunyi,
…mereda.

October, 2020.